In several of my classes we are working on poetry. I dislike it. That's putting it mildly. For me poetry is supposed to reveal some deep emotion or thought. And right now I just don't want to go digging through all the emotions, and to after finding it putting it on paper to be judged. I have always hated the idea of people being able to see me, not physically see me but see the real me, the emotions, fears, failures, along with my dreams and hopes. And so carelessly place them on paper where anyone may see them terrifies me. It would probably be different if I wrote poems well....But that isn't really even the point. Right now with taking 21 credits, working 2 jobs (for a total of 36ish hours a week), interning with my churches youth group and doing sunday school I don;t have the time or energy to go deep into myself and pull out an emotion. Poems seem to need some very powerful, and often painful emotion. I just don't want to get into those. Sometimes turning your face away from the ugly is good, without attention it shrivels and dies but other times it grows and grows. I guess in looking over this I would say I need to go though and work out those emotions, but I am not looking forward to it...Maybe I will just wait a bit longer.....